first gaia
i chewed my lips
until there was blood
on my cigarette butts
looking like lipstick

I know I will look back
I know I will look back.


through total darkness,

like my friend Silence closing
his eyes, trying so hard not to

be there, not to be in the future,
not to dwell on the past a little,

he closed his eyes so tightly.
that was when I knew he

and I would soon become friends.

because no matter how hard we
closed our eyes our lives were still
there and we couldn't dream it away






























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